Today I had a moment of silence reviewing back on my life. I was wondering that… How many people are proud of their choices and how many people have actually regretted their choices? When we come across a fork, or a junction, how to we face them? Do we break and make sure there is no car; before we cross them? Or, we just insanely step on fuel paddle to get the car going faster?
For me, I am not sure which I have done. To be honest, I was a reckless driver when I was a teenager. To me, it was just fun to step on fuel paddle and get me going faster and faster. I love the feeling of dangerous, the heart pounding part (I love it when I can hear my heard pound faster and faster) and the cold sweat part!! Yes! It was so good to be young and “dangerous”. What was the price I paid? I got accident more den 6 times in that year. Life is just like driving: we could drive recklessly or we could drive safely. My life was exactly the way I was driving, I was reckless and I took my youth for granted. I love the dangerous part in my life when I was younger. Curiosity was all over me. When I was in my teens, I love to try everything; this includes crime committing, suicides, and …. (Wont say anymore =x just in case my parents sees this!! LOL) but, what I am trying to say is that, is it all worth it? What was the price I paid for? I didn’t do well in my studies, I got barred from schools, and I can barely stand up on my feet to face my problems! To be honest, I am ashamed of myself.
Again I repeat, life is just like driving. It is how the way we drive, and we deal with it. I remember that when I was in form 5, after my tuition in Ghee, it was a rainy day. I was driving very fast that day. When it comes to a junction, I tried to turn; but the car skied off and I hit a car opposite to me. Then, I run!! Haha! Yes, I did run, but did I solve the problem? NO! After a week, a police warrant was sent to my house. It says that if I didn’t surrender myself, I will be jailed. I was so scared that time. Of course I did turn in myself, but luckily I was fined only. What could I have done? If I settle with that guy on the spot that day, I wouldn’t be fined; or even, if I didn’t turn in myself, I would have been jail. That is why; in life we should have face the consequences before it got worst. Like my driving and accidents, damages have been done in my life. There are only 2 options left:
1. Like hit and run: don’t think bout it, act like nothing happen
2. In accident: deal with the damages (like pay the person that got hit); face the damages that have been done in our life, deal with it.
I guess I have chosen option 1 for 20 years of my life, but I am glad that now, I have chosen option 2 before the consequences got worst. I did regret for a lot of things that have been done in my life. My biggest regret was the subject I chose for my degree programme. Honestly, I have been whining for 3 years, and hated it for as long as I can remember. But now, I guess I have stopped whining, and starting to accept it. Erm.. I didn’t say I liked it, but at least I don’t hate as much as before.
What I am trying to say here is that, who won’t make a mistake? It is just the matter of how we deal with them. I wouldn’t say I won’t make a mistake in the future, but at least now, I may stop at the junction and think a moment; and decide which road to travel. I deeply love my life no matter how much damages I have done to them.
No matter what have happen in our life, let us have a moment of silence to review them. Be proud and stand up for yourself no matter how much damage you have done in your life.
For me, I am not sure which I have done. To be honest, I was a reckless driver when I was a teenager. To me, it was just fun to step on fuel paddle and get me going faster and faster. I love the feeling of dangerous, the heart pounding part (I love it when I can hear my heard pound faster and faster) and the cold sweat part!! Yes! It was so good to be young and “dangerous”. What was the price I paid? I got accident more den 6 times in that year. Life is just like driving: we could drive recklessly or we could drive safely. My life was exactly the way I was driving, I was reckless and I took my youth for granted. I love the dangerous part in my life when I was younger. Curiosity was all over me. When I was in my teens, I love to try everything; this includes crime committing, suicides, and …. (Wont say anymore =x just in case my parents sees this!! LOL) but, what I am trying to say is that, is it all worth it? What was the price I paid for? I didn’t do well in my studies, I got barred from schools, and I can barely stand up on my feet to face my problems! To be honest, I am ashamed of myself.
Again I repeat, life is just like driving. It is how the way we drive, and we deal with it. I remember that when I was in form 5, after my tuition in Ghee, it was a rainy day. I was driving very fast that day. When it comes to a junction, I tried to turn; but the car skied off and I hit a car opposite to me. Then, I run!! Haha! Yes, I did run, but did I solve the problem? NO! After a week, a police warrant was sent to my house. It says that if I didn’t surrender myself, I will be jailed. I was so scared that time. Of course I did turn in myself, but luckily I was fined only. What could I have done? If I settle with that guy on the spot that day, I wouldn’t be fined; or even, if I didn’t turn in myself, I would have been jail. That is why; in life we should have face the consequences before it got worst. Like my driving and accidents, damages have been done in my life. There are only 2 options left:
1. Like hit and run: don’t think bout it, act like nothing happen
2. In accident: deal with the damages (like pay the person that got hit); face the damages that have been done in our life, deal with it.
I guess I have chosen option 1 for 20 years of my life, but I am glad that now, I have chosen option 2 before the consequences got worst. I did regret for a lot of things that have been done in my life. My biggest regret was the subject I chose for my degree programme. Honestly, I have been whining for 3 years, and hated it for as long as I can remember. But now, I guess I have stopped whining, and starting to accept it. Erm.. I didn’t say I liked it, but at least I don’t hate as much as before.
What I am trying to say here is that, who won’t make a mistake? It is just the matter of how we deal with them. I wouldn’t say I won’t make a mistake in the future, but at least now, I may stop at the junction and think a moment; and decide which road to travel. I deeply love my life no matter how much damages I have done to them.
No matter what have happen in our life, let us have a moment of silence to review them. Be proud and stand up for yourself no matter how much damage you have done in your life.
1 comments:
I am really impressed. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. I'm glad that you've "grown up". Every mistake you make in life is another opportunity for you to grow. Smile and the world will smile back at you. GOOD LUCK !
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